parmavi0let-deactivated20141023 asked: hello gorgeous. i just read your post. i understand how you feel when you go through things and people say they know what its like, they don't. i know i can't help you from that perspective but if you ever need anyone to talk to, to get everything out who won't judge or laugh or be horrible, then i'm right here. i promise. xoxoxoxoxo

I wanted help, and I got it on several occasions. It took me a while to admit I even needed help and then ask for it.

I think i’m beyond help now. I’m a lost cause but i beg you to try anyway. Maybe you’ll change my mind. Maybe you can make something happen. I’ll be sure to come to you. 

I have to tell you though, I was never one to talk about my personal feelings. I do at times in the spurr of the moment but mostly i stay quiet. If ever I fail to silence myself I get teased and get a lot of beef. I just don’t want you to think I’m some pity case. I really wanted to make it on my own.

Thank you though. Thank you so much.